My friend Sophie makes and sells jewelry made out ot semi-precious stones and has dedicated a part of her Spring Summer 2013 collection to little Madeleine :-).
I feel like a terrible mother, but yes, I gave in to the pacifier. I don't know if I should really be feeling like a bad mother because my little girl just seems to want to suck all the time. And I've been through 6 weeks of being a human pacifier. My nipples never really got very sore, but it almost feels like Madeleine gets frustrated when milk comes out when she keeps sucking after a full belly. And so she'll let go, arch her back, come back to it, get angry at it, fuss, fuss, fuss, toss her little arms around, fuss even more, turn all red, fuss..........so I'll switch sides and then she'll do it all over again. And she seems to only be able to soothe herself to sleep by sucking away, so most of the time, it's sucking away on Mommy's boobs...and let me tell you at 3 AM, it's tough to wait for her to fall asleep on the boob. We'd gone out to get a binkie a few weeks ago (the white one), being careful to choose one that wouldn't damage her growing teeth further down the road...the sales lady recommended us one that was designed specifically in the nipple shape --- Madeleine HATED it. Then when Grandma Ahma came over, she brought us gifts from everyone, namely the yellow binkie from Uncle Fred... I've been letting it sit in its package convinced it wasn't going to work...but I got pretty desperate last night...and well, well, well! What do ya know?! Not only is she calm, she is also calm lying down by herself and not on someone for once!
So she prefers the big binkie...I will restrain myself from thinking what that's supposed to say about Mommy's nipples.... I was able to shower this morning with R. away at work as she suckled happily away on the binkie. I even had time to throw in an entry in the Little Red Kitchen. So, I might just pull it out a little more often.....I mean, how else am I supposed to have a semi-social life around here?! I think it won't be long before "sleepy smiles" become real smiles. Madeleine turned 6 weeks yesterday. She has changed tremendously these last 2 weeks, weighing 4.5 kilos now, and has outgrown most of the clothes she wore during her first month. When she had peed herself last night, I'd grabbed the last clean pj she had on the rack, and to my surprise, it was too small! It only went down to half her calves! I hadn't noticed how much she'd grown in 2 weeks! I had to rummage through her "new/big clothes drawer" to find something fitting. So, the moose outfit is now of the past...
The last few weeks have been hard as little Madeleine has been colicky. She has had such a hard time passing gas. Breaks my heart to see her squirming with all her might, kicking, crying, trying to get that fart out. And all I can do is soothe her the best I can...and wait for it to pass. My mother flew over from Taiwan for two weeks to give me a hand and cook things up. I'll be posting some photos and a recipe or two in the kitchen section soon...for now I must tend to my crying child who has just woken. |